How did it get so late so soon? It’s already September. Next month, there will be a baby in my house. And the house is still a complete mess! I have so many things I want to do and no energy to do them. I’m finally finished with the mobile, and understanding now why the ones on etsy cost $90+! Now I kind of want to do a name banner thing but I’ve always thought they were kind of lame. That is, until I started decorating my own nursery. Now I want one. Even though I still think it’s kind of stupid. I mean, we’re not going to forget the baby’s name. It’s not like we need to label the room because we have so many kids running around that we’re not sure who belongs in which bed. He won’t even be able to read it! But I want one anyway. We’ll see if I get around to making one. I mean, he doesn’t even have a name yet. We were 90% decided on something, and then completely changed our minds (I completely changed my mind, that is, and told my husband there was no way I could name him that…) Now I’m mostly decided on a completely different name, but who knows how I’ll feel five minutes from now much less six weeks from now, right?
We had our labor and delivery class this weekend. Saturday was all the natural stuff, what your body should do, how to handle pain, all that great stuff. Today is going to be what happens if something goes wrong… medical intervention stuff. And then we get a tour of the birthing center. I’m mostly excited about the tour. I like knowing what to expect when I get somewhere.
I have to say that the class today, which I thought would be useless, was actually quite informative. Instead of feeling terribly scared about labor, I’m feeling kind of excited about it now. I’m sure it doesn’t hurt that I’m reading Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth too, which is having the effect of making me feel (dare I say it) empowered. Like my body is a pretty cool thing that can totally do this.
One other thing that I kind of got from class was unexpected. When we were talking about pain management, a lot of what we discussed is the same stuff I use to get through the last minute of Fran. Or the way I keep pushing myself during Fight Gone Bad, when I think I can’t do another minute. A lot of the breathing tricks are the same, a lot of the mental tricks are the same. And the funniest? All the things she suggested for pushing are the exact things you do when you’re doing a set of heavy squats. The breathing, the focusing, all of it. Maybe that’s what’s making me feel like I can do this. I mean, I’ve done Fran. I’ve done FGB. It’s been a while, but I know I can do them, and I know that most of it is mental. It’s getting through the next minute because you know it won’t last forever. It makes me wish (for the zillionth time) that I’d been able to keep Crossfitting through the entire pregnancy. I’m not sure if my pelvic pain (which is ligament based, so no amount of working out would have stopped it) would have allowed me to do much, but I wish I could have. I bet I’d be that much more equipped to labor and deliver.
Size of babe: He’s almost 5lbs now. What a chunker!
Maternity Clothes: I tried on some maternity yoga pants and they were just… no. Just no. Pants are not a thing I do anymore these days. Skirts all the way lately.
Nursery: I’ve got the mobile finished! I think I’m going to get out the picture frames and decide where I want them so I can start making art to go in them this coming week!
Sleep: Bad dreams lately. I don’t remember what some of them are about, but I wake up feeling unsettled. Last night I had a bad dream about one of the dogs dying. I think it’s an outlet for anxiety.
What I miss: Nothing this week. I’m just happy.
Best moment this week: Today at our labor and delivery class, the instructor told us to think about two traits we wanted the baby to get from our partners. I told my husband that I hoped the baby was hardworking and creative, the way he is. He told me that he hoped the baby would be smart and funny, like me. It just made me really happy. Thinking about it now is making me really happy. I mean, obviously my husband loves me, right? But to hear him so sincerely say that meant the world to me.
Worst moment this week: Work has been tough. I’m really really tired all the time, and it’s been hard for me to do anything during the day. I actually thought I was coming down with something, but I’m feeling fine, just tired all the time. Maybe it’s a pregnancy thing… just, I’m 1st trimester exhausted again lately.
Looking forward to: Still looking forward to actually meeting him! Next month! I’ll be a mom! I’ll meet my little guy! How incredible is that?
Cravings: Oh, this one is a weird one again. My milk craving is back, and brought along with it a craving for yogurt and cheese. I’m guessing I might be short on calcium or something? So I’ve had yogurt once or twice a day, and so much chocolate milk. I think about it all day. I’m not even kidding. It’s the grossest thing (I hate milk and yogurt!) but I think about coming home from work all day so I can drink a ton of milk and have more yogurt.
Symptoms: Mostly the SPD pain still. We got a yoga ball from Target today after I used one in the class and it really helped my pelvis stop hurting. I’m also having some skin stretching pain, which I’m sure will lead to stretch marks in the next few weeks. Boo. :(