I have done something to my right knee.
It feels swollen and bruised and stiff on the inside. I can’t bend it all the way without pain. It’s not a sharp pain, though. It’s a dull, spreading, aching kind of pain. Dr. Google says that it’s either tendonitis, bursitis or maybe lupus (note: it’s not lupus).
I’m pretty sure it’s just an overuse injury from the heavy squats on Monday, but that doesn’t make it better. I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve never had an actual injury before. I mean, I’ve been hurt in various ways, but never had something stop me from moving when I wanted to be moving. Today we were supposed to be working on heavy jerks, but I did strict presses instead (5×3 working up to a 75lb heavy set), to rest my knee. I’m worried it won’t be healed in time to find a new max front squat on Monday.
It’s oddly frustrating and I feel a little panicky about it. What if I miss out on the end of this strength cycle? What if I can’t find my new maxes next week? What if this lasts longer than a few days?
Isn’t that silly?
I mean, it’s not like Monday’s workout will be the last time I ever do a front squat. It’s not like I won’t have (hopefully) countless opportunities to get stronger. But I’m worried about missing these days. I keep telling myself that, but I can’t stop the feeling of frustration. And it’s not even a serious injury! It’s the sort of thing that feels like it will be resolved with a little rest, maybe some ice and ibuprofin, and I’ll be good as new… in a few days, hopefully. Maybe a couple weeks. But I don’t want to miss out on those days or weeks.
If it still feels this way next week, I guess I’ll find my new max shoulder press. Maybe I’ll keep working on pull ups. I mean, I’m not going to let it stop me from moving entirely. I guess I just have to figure out ways to move that don’t hurt. I hate having separate wods, though. Tomorrow we’re doing Fight Gone Worse, which has thrusters, snatches, box jumps and sumo deadlift high pulls. I don’t think I can really do any of those without pain.